This isn't a very well constructed post. I'm not even going to bother proofreading it. I'm just too tired:
Well, I'm here. It's been about three weeks now, and I've laid in bed almost every night wondering what in the world I've gotten myself into. In a nutshell, I don't have a roommate, which is the most lonely thing in the world. Natalie is busy a lot, so I haven't seen her much lately. Chris and I got back together, for a week. It didn't work out, so we broke back up. So I'm back at square one feeling completely broken again, but we're friends. Being friends with the person I'm crazy about is not easy. It takes every ounce of energy to put a smile on when I see him and pretend like my heart isn't shattered into a million pieces. I see him almost everyday, but I don't think he has a clue how much I miss him. I really wish all this wasn't happening. It's really stressful and confusing. As if I'm not enough of an emotional person, right? As for classes, they are going well. My public speaking teacher told me after my first speech, I cross my eyes when I get nervous. So now I'm even more nervous. I have biology with Tyler. It's nice to know at least one person in one of my classes. Spanish is killing me. It has by far the largest work load, but even that is doable. What kills me is that she expects me to participate in class! I don't do well participating in English, much less Spanish! Math is easy. And that leaves Philosophy. Discussing Plato's thoughts on life at 9am, is just not working for me. But once I wake up a bit, it really isn't too bad. The first football game is in 1 day and 19 hours!! I'm so excited for that! Plus, Boomsday is Sunday! And the family is coming up! Then Monday is Labor Day, no school! Yay! Other than all that, I've been super sick almost continuously since I got here. Well, actually, I guess since I started the Metformin, but it's gotten worse this week. Sometimes, I just want to go home. I really miss home. I miss my family, and my car, and my friends, and my work, and my bed, and my own private bathroom, and my normal size fridge, and a microwave that cooks the whole bacg of popcorn, and not just burn half of it. I miss my TV, I miss my filtered water, I miss darkness and quiet when I sleep. I miss being able to cook and bake. I just miss home. However, for now, this is where I am. This is where I'm staying, and I have to make the best of it. God has placed me here for a reason and I'll have faith that he will get me though this, one day at a time.
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